Nithyanandam,
During Nirahara Samyama, I was able to experience a different dimension in me while doing the process of Nirahara Samyama and The Samyama. I succeeded in first attempt of Nirahara Samyama. I did not have any difficulties doing this process. While doing the Nirahara Samyama I was able to see how much my awareness has increased. Before when unpleasant situations happen I would react automatically to those situations, like exploding in anger. I had no control over my emotions. During this process the awareness was so much that I can actually see the unpleasant situations happening outside of me and I was able to see the negative emotions rising inside me to respond to that situation. But as I was seeing the emotions rising up, instead of responding to the outer situation the emotions just came down and disappeared inside my system. I was left feeling peaceful and relaxed. Even my muscles did not tense up. I was able to see the whole episode as an onlooker. I lost 10 pounds during this process.
While doing The Samyama there were no high ups or low downs in my emotional level, which was usually the case before I started this Nirahara process. I actually started thinking something was wrong with me. I thought that maybe without solid food my mind was becoming so lazy that is was refusing to respond emotionally to the outer situations. So I told Swamiji that the intensity of my emotions are coming down. Swamiji said “That is exactly what is supposed to happen. You are not supposed to have intensity in emotions, you are supposed to have stability in emotions. When the fat leaves the body the stability in emotions happens. You will see when you go back you will have more stable relationships.” Once I also experienced waves of bliss inside me for some time. I had so much freedom from my emotions while doing this process. I lost another 20 pounds after completing The Samyama two times and my BMI came down to 19.1. I had no difficulty doing this process. I was able to feel so much energy during initiations from Swamiji. I felt very light during The Samyama process.
Abirami Paramanathan
Scarborough, Canada
