When Swamiji first offered the Nirahara Samyama (NS), I wanted deeply to do it immediately but I knew that many, many of his devotees would want to do it right away and so, I waited knowing that two-way would be very difficult to get. The second time He offered this, it also proved to be the case. It was finally during the third NS I had an opportunity to begin and there were sufficient openings on two-way to allow me to join.
My nutritional levels were extremely low as I had been on oxygen 24/7, and had just quit smoking the year before. The truth is I ignore my emotions by sticking things in my mouth – which stems from an infantile trauma – PTSD – not enough food mother’s breast milk didn’t work.
So, not eating was extremely difficult. I would suffer through a minute at a time and say, “I can get through just the next minute, not hour, not days, just one minute, let me do this just one minute.”
As I did this, I also watched myself from outside myself – detaching from the direct experience – so as to create some distance and observe from “The Silent Watcher,” or my “Higher Self,” “Soul,” call it what you wish. This becomes possible easily when one has a good, solid meditation practice. Can highly recommend Mahavatar Paramahamsa Nithyananda’s book, Meditation Is for You. I am still not finished with it because every time I pick it up, I get a new meditation to practice for 21 days. It is free on His website.
I sat in two-way and made it through to halfway through the third leg when He was not available one night due to it being a Full Moon. And, my secret chakra rumbled. It did not occur to me then to connect with Him silently. I should have gone into meditation and connected. It was day five or six of the third leg and I was hanging on by my fingernails and the Ananda Ghanda rolled and I used it as an excuse to eat and ran to the kitchen to get toast when he didn’t show up for Satsang.
I lost the golden glow from my skin, my body began to ache again, and pain in my teeth came back. My lower back was sore and the breathing was difficult again. I didn’t really realize until I quit, how great I had felt while doing NS!
I was sad. But, I also was happy that I was in 100% integrity, and I didn’t cheat, and honestly said, “this is what has occurred.” I also knew that my struggle was extremely strong and the work was very hard. I also had not done IA and so, there was cleaning up that Swamiji had not done on me. I decided to do it again.
The next time I had an opportunity was in the seventh batch and I was able to connect with Swamiji immediately. And, this time, I thought, “nothing, nothing, nothing will interrupt my success.” And, I made it!
Before the NS my nutrient and mineral levels were checked and I was extremely low: 5% of Vitamin D; 15% of Calcium, and on and on. During the NS itself I had an appointment anyway at the hospital and they checked all my nutrient levels. They were perfect! I was so shocked. Remember: I was a very sick young lady. And, now I am completely healthy? No one was more surprised than me. And, I felt great! And, so much time that I had spent getting food, thinking about food, eating, all this time was free to do other things. One of the strongest benefits is that it is a virtual “Fountain of Youth.” Prana is this.
My mother was extremely impressed and it motivated her to get on a much stricter and healthier routine making her body more alkaline and getting rid of her arthritis. A friend at the health food store where I go, Danielle, was very impressed and went to my holistic physician to get her own levels checked and started a much healthier diet.
There were many, many other people. The point was that it rippled. And, one young lady, quit abusing her body with Bulimia. She said, I just melted with you. You make me feel so safe, so honest, that I can tell you all my secrets. She is such a beautiful, sweet young lady and I was so happy that just sitting with her created this effect in her.
Swamiji has created this path that allows us to create a world that doesn’t need to go to war for basic sustenance. This creates a path to world peace. Thank you, Swamiji, Mahavatar Paramahamsa Nithyananda.
Alixandra Vanderzon
Entrepreneur
VisionQuest™, LLC – CEO
Virginia, USA
